just another entry

i noe i noe...very long since i updated...but i didnt think anyone would give a damn to read my blog lah...so i didnt update...but today...i had the right mood and the spare time..so wat the heck lah...life's been pretty rocky lately lah...with the sec4 things and my depression coming back...sometimes i really duno how to handle so much things at one go...i guess starting of the year has to be like that...maybe it will be less stressful as time goes by...trying to get my old life back...the depression is kinda like the tsunami thingy...it is only here for a very short period of time and it had totally brought my life to pieces...nothing was in shape and i had to reshape my whole entire life...from scratch...attitudes...principles...beliefs...everything...really really hard and all...but no complains lah...all my fault oso mah...who to blame??just that things just dun go my way and it makes it all the more difficult to fit back in...not that i dun wan to to fit in...i just cant...i seem too different...i think my set of thinking scares people...haha...wat can i say??i am a weird person...well...gotta end here...dun wana lose slp anymore...havnt been eating properly liao...cant lose slp as well...dun wana be zombie..