wat happened?

i feel stupid losing sleep over something that happened more than one and a half years ago...and what is stupid-er is that i never knew what happened exactly...it was a wham bam tada kinda situation...i don't know...it was about two years ago...that incident...i liked him...i really did...and why the hell did i deny it?oh yah...nerves and pride...the price of being young....what really happened? until now..i am still deeply perplexed by this...even if it is my fault...i still think i deserve that right to know what i am apologising for...and what if i am wronged?at least hear two sides of an arguement before judgement, i thought it was like that...but they also said nothing in the world is fair...like my cousin say...two years le...it would mean that the answer is never meant to be found...so why brood over it?all you have to do is tell yourself you don't care anymore...and i think my cousin is right...so what if i knew?in the end, whether i knew the answer or not, the only thing that is ever going to change is my age...i wasted two years...i think that's enough time to mourn over the lost friendship...it's time to gather up the emotions and move on...maybe to something better, maybe not...but the most important thing is to let go of the past...always living in it won't make you stop aging anyway...