random-ness

sometimes it hurts...most of the time it doesn't...mostly, i don't like it...but i still do it...cuz that's what i am conditioned to do...

it can hurt like a pen knife stuck into your flesh and slowly making a deep cut...or it can feel like the most natural thing to do...like an everyday thing...but no matter...in life...some times i win some and sometimes i lose some...it's probably just that my winning streak isn't here yet...

till then, i would do what i do best...and honor my promise...one that has beeen strictly abide to since i knew what it was...never wavering, never forgotten...i don't like what i am doing...but i'll do it nonetheless...

it hurts...