Run Away

Every time I’m happy
It kinda feels so empty
I wonder if this feeling is wrong

All the time I sit here
Taking in the pills
I wonder what I did wrong

You say that I
Don’t have to cry
Just to live
My fucking life
I tell you

I can’t live
With this smile
Plastered to me face
Can’t live
With this
Never ending lie
I should just
Spread my wings and fly
Fly away
I can’t live
With this joke
Going all around
I’m meant for
Greater things than this town
Pack up
All my guts and run
Run away

Take a chance
Take a leap of faith
Take a break
Take whatever you need to start again
Join a band
Wreck a newsstand
Have some fun
Do whatever it takes to laugh again
Cuz

I can’t live
With this smile
Plastered to me face
Can’t live
With this
Never ending lie
I should just
Spread my wings and fly
Fly away
I can’t live
With this joke
Going all around
I’m meant for
Greater things than this town
Pack up
All my guts and run
Run away
Run far far away
Run away
Run away

Broken child

Too much has happened
It cause you to be broken
So when will you come to me?

You live in your darkness
Guilt and desperation
So when will you come to me?

You don’t have to say a thing
I’ll love you all the same
So why don’t you come to me?

Like a broken child
You blame yourself
Too much so much
It doesn’t make sense
Like a broken child
I will love you so
So much so much
I’ll mend your broken soul

Put away your nightmares
They’re as real as you make them
So when will you let it go?

Take all your tears
Put them in a bottle
Throw it away and then let it go.

You don’t have to say a thing
I’ll love you all the same
So why don’t you come to me?

Like a broken child
You blame yourself
Too much so much
It doesn’t make sense
Like a broken child
I will love you so
So much so much
I’ll mend your broken soul

Like a broken child
You blame yourself
Too much so much
It doesn’t make sense
Like a broken child
I will love you so
So much so much
I’ll mend your broken soul

You

You walk in and my strength walks out that door
You look at me and I look to the floor
You call my name and my mouth runs dry
You walk over and I wanna hide
So many times I dreamt about coming clean
Well, let’s just say that you dominate my dreams

You talk to me and I stammered out the words
You laugh at me and I felt a little hurt
You said to chill so I took a deep breath
You started over and wanna shake my hand
So many times I wished that this would happen
Well, let’s just say I didn’t plan my reaction

It’s so amazing
That when you walk in
Everyone just stops and stares
Maybe it’s your chiseled chest
Maybe it’s your glorious hair
But does it matter?
You make hearts flutter
And my thoughts just escaped the earth

You flash a smile and then walk up to me
Push me against the wall and started to lean in
Your lips touched mine and I went high
Oh, did I mention that was all in my mind
So many times I dreamt about coming clean
Well, let’s just say that you dominate my dreams

It’s so amazing
That when you walk in
Everyone just stops and stares
Maybe it’s your chiseled chest
Maybe it’s your glorious hair
But does it matter?
You make hearts flutter
And my thoughts just escaped the earth

Oh baby
You don’t know me
But I can’t stop thinking about we
Oh baby
You’re so pretty
When you’re around I start hyperventilating

It’s so amazing
That when you walk in
Everyone just stops and stares
Maybe it’s your chiseled chest
Maybe it’s your glorious hair
But does it matter?
You make hearts flutter
And my thoughts just escaped the earth

Dark Friends

We met at the lowest points of our lives
Our masks were already wielded on tight
But the moment I looked at you
I could see it in your eyes

We sat together and spent a lot of time
I wore your mask down and you wore down mine
We drew our plans high up in the sky
Or sat in silence on the line

I didn’t have to say a word
You knew that you’ll always come first
And at that time

Nothing in the world could ever touch us
Our walls were so high we had our own sky
It could be sunny everywhere else
But we loved our rain
And we loved our clouds
Right in there
Our no man’s land
We found peace that we could understand

We were so lost and we had been used
Trusting in others had gotten us bruised
But if it wasn’t for all of that
I wouldn’t have found you

So many times we got our faith destroyed
All that change that fateful night
In this earthly masquerade ball
I could see me in your eyes

You didn’t have to say a word
I knew that I’ll always come first
So at that time

Nothing in the world could ever touch us
Our walls were so high we had our own sky
It could be sunny everywhere else
But we loved our rain
And we loved our clouds
Right in there
Our no man’s land
We found peace that we could comprehend

Oh it was perfect (I felt yoour pain)
Oh so perfect (I kept you sane)
And so I said

Nothing in the world could ever touch us
Our walls up so high
We drew futures in the sky
Let it be sunny everywhere else
We’ll sing with our voices
And create our own smiles
Right in there
Our no man’s land
We found happiness only we can have

Words I Should Have Said

I was thrown into the sea
But I wasn’t taught how to swim
And as I close my eyes to die
I swear I saw a ray of light

I feel your arms encircle me
In a life saving embrace
And I feel myself get lifted
From my own misery

You were there
You heard my silent screams
You were there
You were there

How easily
You broke through my boundaries
You were the first to ever
Get so close to me
How easily
You became my saving grace
And all the words that I should’ve said
It’s too late

I was forced into the silence
Lost my ability to speak
You drew me out of my cave
And gave me everything I need

I never had to learn to share
You were mine and no one else
It took so long for me to see
That you were the one for me

You were there
Through all the silent years
You were there
You were there

How easily
You broke through my boundaries
You were the first to ever
Get so close to me
How easily
You became my saving grace
And all the words that I should’ve said
It’s too late
It’s too late

I lost it all
I ran away when you said you loved me
Forever and ever more
I got scared
I thought it would spoil everything that we had

How easily
You became my saving grace
And all the words that I should’ve said
And all the words that I should’ve said
It’s too late

confused

after i start working and hang around msn alot lesser...i feel like i am so out of the loop...like missing out alot of things...why some are depressed while others are blowing hot and cold...haiz...when will people be honest with me so that i can know what to do...i feel like i am doing puzzle without the picture...every piece seems to fit together...but the picture looks disjointed...i wonder how long i need to play this guessing game b4 i chance upon any form of honesty...

how dead can you feel when you are alive? can you forget to breathe? forget that you need to eat? forget pain...forget anything that contains feelings in them...forget so much that your heart starts to fail...fail to feel, to pump...you can almost feel it slowing down...like when you are falling asleep...